Drifting

Not only is it hard - it is impossible - to describe what it feels like to have a critically ill child in the NICU. So I'm not going to try too hard. The best I can do to describe it is as a combination of two things. 1) standing on the edge of a cliff, looking over, leaning over ever so slightly, and the only thing holding you back is a piece of dental floss tied around your waist. 2) drifting. You know those races where the cars drift around corners? YouTube it. Rally cars basically speed around corners so fast that their back tires 'drift' and the cars almost lose control. You're still on a race track, you're driving as fast as you can, but you're just barely hanging on. Drifting.